Monday, November 17, 2008

Uncontrollable Feelings


Im sitting here at my computer overwhelmed by the many emotion that are overpowering me. I try to resist these feelings but they seem to control me. I never knew that love could be such a dominant feeling. How can it feel so amazing but cause such heartache. Things and feeling that I thought had been left in the past seem to have always living in the present but I had been in denial thinking that would make those feelings go away. And you know what else kills me about love is the fact that my feelings arent returned..at least not anymore. So I sit up at night, a servitude to love and wonder what am I going to do if i dont get my hearts desire. Im fighting a battle and slowly losing while my heart is dying. My heart got robbed but I am an accomplice to that because I allowed it to happen. My eyes cant shut at night because im wondering what it is going to take for me to come out victorious..I guess time will only tell.

6 comments:

ANGEL_LINA said...

Strange... I'm feeling almost the same way, this is eerie - lolz

I'm shattered to pieces, but slowly patching & stitching myself again... Cried my heart out & I felt so much better...

Feelings... they die, resurrected, renewed and die again - like all things on earth that's impermanent...

Artowawa said...

No one can control the way that they feel. Don't feel sad coz you allowed it to happen. At least you gave it a try and not just let the opportunity pass. The most important thing is that you tried and gave it your best shot.

No regrets and no asking yourself when you are old all the 'what ifs'.

Everything happen for a reason, be it bad or good. God will not give us any tests that he thinks that we are not capable of handling.

Have faith in yourself.

When you reach the bottom, there is no other way but up. But you urself will have to want to climb up. Otherwise, no one can help you.

Cheers! Have a carlsberg!

goolooloo said...

Don't think so much la cacatkia. Lifes goes on la. Keep thinking also pointless. Hmm, go ahead make more pao, free for good ppl like me, u will feel u are much more important! blerk! I wan cha sao pao!

cacatkia™ said...

carlsberg time for me now!!!!!!

ANGEL_LINA said...

Cheers !

cacatkia™ said...

thanks for the comments anyway.. it meant a lot for me so i'm gonna clear up my mind.