Uhm, nothing. I just feel like writing a blog at this very moment. There are lots of thoughts in my mind yet I can pick a single one to start this journal. I cannot utter the thought I want to pick up in my mind. Argh!! I feel so annoyed of myself. Maybe I’ll start it this way.
Life has finally slapped me awake. I finally realized the other emotions around that are waiting for me to enjoy. Letting go, moving on and getting over has never felt so smooth neither easy. But like what I’ve said, it is on us on how we take it. Life isn’t perfect for many of us, yet we still can feel it perfect depending on how we enjoy it. It has lots of things to offer, lots of options and choices and each time we choose, we also took the risk of falling and being hurt so deeply. I can't seem to find my place in this world,no matter how hard I try,no matter how much I give,I always end up alone..and unhappy. I guess until now I have not learned the gift of true and unconditional love..to love someone to the fullest without expecting the same in return..to love and make sacrifices even if it means giving up your own happiness for the sake of your love one..to love and let go if freedom is the only way for them to have the best in life. No,still I am blinded by mere possesiveness,selfishness and greed. For I can only be loved truely when I learn to love myself..I still have a very long way to go..a journey to conquer...
As of now, I am enjoying my life with other things. I found the happiness of my heart in the other options of life. Maybe they are right, they are right that it’s not yet the right time for me to be in love. Who knows? And no one can ever really say so. I am still immature at times, yet I view the points of life maturely so I can go smoothly with the flow. Why would I hinder the flow with such efforts if I can softly feel the warmth of emotions in life?
I feel fine now. I think this is kinda piffle. I’ve written a lot ‘bout my heart. I just want to spill out some thoughts in my mind and feel carefree to utter what’s in my heart. This will be my last post for now on. Please dont keep asking me to update my blog anymore.